i dont  want school to start...there's still a week plus to go...but time flies and you have no idea how much i HATE the school and dread going back.

i didnt list any resolutions for 2007 but now i'm gonna make one and that's to leave SSIS after S4..By 2007 Sept...i will not want to step in to SSIS anymore.

like real.

but,i really really have this strong feeling that...

i will stay.

March to July, thats another 4 more months. fine i can survive. but 2007 to 2009?? that's another 2 more years. and no, time will not fly when you're not enjoying yourself.  

why force yourself to stay in a  place you dislike?

but

where are you gonna get your IB to enter universities in Singapore and not overseas?

and now..thinking back. i wasted 4 years in SSIS. i dont actually need the MYP certificate that badly! (like what the hell is it for) i still remember that night (when i was still in S2)...crying and complaining, wanting to transfer out of SSIS.. i could almost do that. We even went to check out the schools and stuff, but then the fucking school went to tell my dad that i should take the MYP programme and shit. now i REGRET! it seriously wasn't that important and useful. 

2 years later? will i be repeating the same thing?

4 more days of school(: 

After CNY it will be the May holz followed by Summer. Sometimes, i wonder what will happen 4 months later? Begging people to STAY? or busy applying for other schools? all that i know. I dont wanna stay:(  Of course I know it's stupid to give up IB after 4 years of MYP,but honestly, i cant even handle MYP well = = like for term 2, i failed geo test (which i thought was pretty okay) and i failed chem (which was expected) and i got a 5 for math,which i thought i was pretty satisfied with...hahaha i improved.3 to 5...= = 

I even failed a chinese zuo wen last term.. but my term 2 chinese's grades were alright (: English was alright too (term 1 & 2)...Bio...very satisfied :) so far, bio is like my best subject among all = = but......perhaps not the moderation pieces.....peanuts, pineapple and penguins.. all the Ps

Btw, I'm only passing the 36 thing by like 3-5 points??? and if IBO decides to pull my grades down.. that's the end......= = 

I mean i really dont feel like doing IB...if that's the case, there's no point staying right? (:

Oh well, stop bull-shitting - - you will end up STAYING...

Just before i was about to sign out, Philip nudged me. I saw him at Starbucks the other day! I've known him for like 10 years?? but we didnt really keep contact until we met at Starbucks! He's still very nice. haha it was so funny. We were like really staring at each other before confirming.anyway it was great seeing him after SO many years (: Then we were talking about school....and i was telling him how popular he is, cus a lot of people happen to know him and his group of friends since they've been to like almost all the schools in Shanghai- -  Their life...VERY exciting...like seriously...= =

and i received a bottle of Anna Sui's limited perfume yesterday. From my dad's friend. haha my very first Anna Sui Collection :)

erm...not to forget....

Eng Essay - 10 %

Chem- 0%

Math Report- 0%

Math Test - 0%

all due before i go back..= =

the bed calls!(: school in 6 hours time :(

Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories, and you're always gonna miss them. Don't try to replace him, cause you won't. Just get through each day, and eventually it will get better. I promise. Eventually someone will come into your life, and whether or not you realize it, they are going to be something special to you. so don't throw yourself at every guy you see, trying to replace him, or at least dull the memories, cause you're only gonna make yourself see how hard he is to replace...